March 28, 2012

Dear Father,

I read recently that successful people focus on improving their strengths and the rest of us focus on changing our weaknesses.  I find myself increasingly envious of that ability to better their best instead of wallowing in their worst.  I do that, Lord.  I look at myself and I see so many things that should be different - I should eat better and exercise more, I should have better attention to detail, I should be on time, I should spend less, I should keep my apartment cleaner...

As You know, You who knows the number of hairs on my head, the list of my flaws is extensive and weighty.  Mistakes, public and private, stay with me for a long time.  I'm almost unable to forgive myself.  I still feel guilty for things I did wrong in elementary school.  I say I accept Your forgiveness, but do I really, if I don't let go of the feeling of failure?  And if the "should have"s are always on the top of my mind, how do I make room for the "could"s.  How do I step out of my errors? How do I become the person You want me to be?

Please, Lord, help me to see the potential of my life and not just the potential pit-falls.  Move my best to the front of my thoughts and help me clear out old mistakes.  Help me to truly accept Your grace and start each day with a fresh outlook.

In Jesus name I pray,
Amen.

March 7, 2012 11:13 am

Dear Father,

I know You see the cloud that I am under.  I have struggled with emotional illness for most of my life, and even though it's invisible to most people, I know You see it.  And I know You can punch a hole in it for me.

Focus so illusive today.  It is a multi-taskers world and I cannot seem to keep my brain on what I'm supposed to be doing.  I need a little tunnel vision, a little calm in the waves of thought that keep knocking me in different directions.  I need You to silence the time wasters that keep calling my name and slow the tide of interuptions.

In Jesus name I pray.  Amen.